| What If I Were Dead?! |
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1.What do you think happens after you die? We go back into nothingness. . .
2.Do you believe in heaven? No
3.Do you believe in hell? No
4.Do you think you will be judged after you die? No
5.How many people would attend your funeral? 7
6.Would you rather that people cry or laugh at your funeral? A little bit of both
7.What's better? A shot in the head or downing pills? Neither
8.What should be written on your tombstone? "Heartless"
9.Would you rather die childless or divorced? Childless
10.Do you want to die in the morning, afternoon, or night? In the afternoon
11.If you had a million dollars to leave, who would you leave it to? 50%Kevin, 50%Megan (he he)
12.What kind of flowers do you want at your funeral? "A dozen Black Roses"
13.On your deathbed, which moment will you most remember? The moment that I saw the most beautiful eyes
14.Have you ever watched someone die? No
15.What's the most gruesome death you can imagine? Drowning
16.How often do you think about death? Not very much
17.Is fear of dying your number one fear? No
18.Do you believe in reincarnation? No
19.Have you ever wished someone you loved were dead? No
20.Do you consider life short or long? Short
21.Do you think you have a soul? Yes
22.Assisted suicide for a terminally ill person is: Mercy
23.If you were cremated, where would you like your ashes? In Space
24.Would you choose to be immortal, if you could be? Yes
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[25 Aug 2004|05:20am] |
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I'm not sure why I like that word, but, I really do. Not having a job is really horrible. I'm really glad that I quit. There are a million and one other jobs. (not in harlan, though) No I get to spend all my time reading everyone's pointless journal entries. . . Oh. . . wait. Lmmfao :)
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| Dreams and jibberish. . . |
[20 Aug 2004|01:16am] |
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I have felt like I have been dreaming all day. I guess not sleeping can do that to you. Of course, there are other reasons that add more 'feel' to that feeling of dreaminess. I had the craziest thought about an hour ago. . . driving back home. What if nothing is real. What if everything is just a figment of my imagination. I know it sounds crazy, but, you can never be too sure about things. What if, with the portion of my brain that I never really use (73.45%), I have created everything that is around me. The objects, the feelings, the people. What if you were all created in my mind, by me, for me?! I know that it doesn't make much sense, especially at this certain moment in time. But, you must think of it this way. You cannot have the good without the bad. You cannot have cold without the hot. . . etc. etc. etc. None of you can tell me any differently. What if, in my mind, I want you all to tell me that. I would never really know because it's all in that part of my mind that I can't really use. What if you have created me to somehow understand what is really going on?! How do you know that I still exist whenever you do not see me? Because of this journal entry maybe?! What if this is something that YOU have created to make yourself think that I'm real?! You can never be too sure. Neither can I. You're you and I'm me, so, we'll never really know, will we?!
(note: this is the early stage of the development. Feel free to contradict.)
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| Everyone is always after something. . . |
[18 Aug 2004|02:40am] |
It's kind of funny. How everyone always wants something from other people. Of course we all want things. But, what type of person we are determines what those things are. "I want this, and this . . . bleh bleh bleh." I just sit back and watch. It's truly pathetic. Everyone wants to be "trendy" and everyone wants to be "scene." That's the hip thing to do these days. . . Everyone wants to be a part of something oh so important. . . I'm sick of the white belts and the "xxxhardcorexxx." I'm sick of the <3's and of the interest lists. . . The colorbars, the "secrets," and the "i'm in the same boat as you." It all makes me sick. Dramadramadrama. All of you just love the drama. You need it to survive. It's the only thing that you know how to do. We all make ourselves believe in something. Even I have done that. Believe whatever you want. You can't cover up the truth with it. The truth that we are all absolutely nothing. Without our "dramadramadrama", our little "secrets", our "white belts". . . we are absolutely nothing. Accept your fate. Accept the fact that in the end, we are what we were before we were even spoken of. Nothing. Why try to hide that fact with even the smallest of details. Just a waste of time. It's not worth the love. . . It's not worth the hate. . . It's not worth any of what it has become. I feel like I was involved with it, which is something that I'm truly ashamed of. In the back of my mind. . . I knew. But, I made myself believe it was better than what it actually was. Just like everyone else. We do make ourselves believe in things.
My mind and my heart are two totally different things. I'm a logical person, I think. But, I also believe in following my heart. They, my mind and my heart, are telling me two different things. It's all so confusing. Whatever happens, happens for a reason. We may not know what that reason is at the moment, but, with time, it will all become clear. I just hope that I'm doing the right thing. I want something to believe in. Something that really matters. Something that has mattered to me until recently. I don't know if I can ever have that feeling again, but, it's worth trying. Let someday be today. . . Make me feel that again.
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| . . . I thought I told you to quit that shit. |
[17 Aug 2004|05:14am] |
BASiCS
001. full name : Christopher Lee Carroll
002. nicknames : c2, sweet-heart, cake
003. sex : Male
004. birthday : May 14 1984
005. age : 20
006. star sign : Taurus
007. place of birth : Here, sadly. . .
008. current residence: Baxter, KY
009. hair colour : brown
010. eye color : Green/Brown
011. height : 5'9
012. writing hand : Right
____BODY iLLS + SKiLLS
013. do you bite your nails : nervousness. . .
014. can you roll your tongue : Yeah.
016. can you raise one eyebrow at a time : Yeah. . .
017. can you blow smoke rings: A million.
018. can you blow spit bubbles : i think so. . .
019. can you cross your eyes: Uh huh
020. colored hair: no
021. tattoos and where : no
022. piercing and where: no (sounds so boring, huh?!)
023. do you make your bed daily : no
024. what goes on first bra or underwear : let's see here. . .
025. which shoe goes on first : the one i get to first
036. speaking of shoes, have you thrown one at someone : Yeah.
037. how much money is usually in your wallet?: depends on which wednesday you're talking about
038. what jewelry do you wear 24/7 : watch.
039. whats sexiest on a guy : lmmfao
040. whats sexiest on a girl : you should know that. . . :)
041. would you rather be on time and look ok or late and look great?: yeah. EARLY
042. do you twirl your speghetti or cut it : Twirl it.
043. how many cereals are in your cabinet : 0
044. what utensils do you use eating pizza : chainsaw
045. do you cook : sure do, but, not in a while.
____GROOMiNG
046. how often do you brush your teeth : once (ewwww)
047. how often do you shower/bathe : Every other day, sometimes even every other, other day.
048. how long do these showers last :
049. hair drying method : "I need a towel"
050. do you paint your nails : she does
051. do you swear : Well. . . GODDAMN!!!
052. do you mumble to yourself : NO.
053. do you spit in public : Not really.
054. do you pee in the shower: Yeah. What he said
055. whats in your cd player : ?!?! not sure
056. person you talk most on the phone with: megan-megan
057. what color is your bedroom : grey, black, and brown (and it's my living room, too:))
058. do you use an alarm clock : no
059. name one thing or person you're obsessed with: her beautiful eyes
060. have you ever skinny dipped with the opposite sex : not sure?!
061. ever sunbathed in the nude: No.
063. whats your sleeping position: either side. . .
064. what kind of bed do you like : bouncy
065. in hot weather do you use a blanket : Yeah. I'm always cold.
066. do you snore : Sometimes.
067. do you sleepwalk : there was this one time. . .
068 do you talk in your sleep : do you think i could hear it if i did?!
069. do you sleep with a stuffed animal: no
070. how about the light on : no
071. do you fall asleep with the tv or audio on: Uh huh. Vehemence!! GodForbid!!!
072. had sex : not me. . . i don't do that. . .
073. were kissed:? such sweet softness. . . today
074. watched bambi: "PURDY FLOWER"
075. cried : little while ago
076. talked on the phone : Megan
077. read a book : Started on . . . damn, can't even remember.
078. punched someone : Kevin?! Sorry. . .
____MUSiC
079. is music important to you : Yes.
080. do you sing?: Sunglasses.
081. what instruments do you like:? Ibanez GSA60
082. what do you think of Eminem: Blunt as hell
___DO YOU LiKE
083. pop music : oh yeah. just love the stuff
084. rock music : lmmfao
085. punk music : MXPX
086. rap music : Bone Thugs-n-Harmony
087. hip-Hop/RB : fuck. . .
088. country : "My wife left me, my dog died" it's all the same. . .
089. jazz : no jazz for me
090. classical : Mozart, Vivaldi, Liszt (is that right?)
091. new age : ...
092. what is one band/singer you like that no one has heard of? "the little red haired girl"
___ABC'S
A - Act your age?: I act like I'm fifty (the seriousness of it all)
B - Born on what day of the week: Between Monday and Tuesday. . . ?!
C - Chore you hate : Stupid McDonald's
D - Dad's name? who knows. . . who cares. . . right?!
E - Essential makeup item: Never go out without my lipstick. . . sure
F - Favorite actress:
G - Gold or silver? !!!
H - Hometown? Harlan
I - Instruments you play? Guitar, piano
J - Job title? The McDonald's Man
K - Kids? Yeah, I think i could handle that. . .
L - Living arrangements? Just Kevin and I.
M - Mom's name? Dianne.
N - Number of people you've slept with? wouldn't you like to know.
O - Overnight hospital stays? A couple
P - Phobia? hydrophobia, (yeah, what he said)
Q - Quote you like? "You're the same decaying organic matter as everything else." - Tyler Durden
R - Religious affiliation? "Praise Jesus brothers!!"
S - Siblings? Six brothers. One sister.
T - Time you wake up? whenever
U – Underwear color: blue
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat? None.
W - Worst habit? Smoking.
X – X = x? ?x=X – X
Y - Yummy food you make? cookies. . .
Z - Zodiac Sign? Taurus
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| "Another Qualude. . ." |
[09 Aug 2004|02:51pm] |
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"Say hello to my little friend."
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| Back In Business. . . |
[03 Jul 2004|01:42am] |
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Today, I went back to work. . . I thought I would do shitty, but, it turned out just fine. I can't believe I actully missed it so much. . .
The Moose-"It's good to have you back, man! Anyway, I've been married twice. . .
They both died though. *makes sad face* The first one died from eating poisonous mushrooms. The second one died of a gunshot. . . because she wouldn't eat her damn mushrooms. . ." *dies laughing*
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[29 Jun 2004|03:05pm] |
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Everytime I send an e-mail or update my journal, I press alt+s! Stupid html! Anyway. . . That's all. . .K. Bye
iloveyalikewhoa!
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| Never Would've Imagined. . . |
[29 Jun 2004|02:40pm] |
| snowbound's LJ stalker is fuscusvenators! | | fuscusvenators is stalking you because another friend of yours told them you liked them. They are also in jail for murder! |
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| B2C Anime |
[29 Jun 2004|02:06am] |
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B2C Anime
(still under construction)
how's this for not having shit to do. . .
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[23 Jun 2004|07:50am] |
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"You're not your job. You're not how much money you have in the bank. You're not the car you drive. You're not the contents of your wallet. You're not your fucking khakis. You're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world."
-Tyler Durden-
Let's start a Fight Club!
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[15 Jun 2004|06:30am] |
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Hope everyone likes the change. . .
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